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Cogito ergo sum

2010-04-07T17:35:00.002+08:00

Good day fellow citizens of planet earth. It is my pleasure today to inform you guys of the demise of the past-blogger what's his name and now the arrival of his descendant: Descartes.

Descartes, for those with the singaporean tongue, is pronounced DAY-CUT, or Day-card. Whatever it is, it's not dis-car-tes or des-cart-tis. A short discourse: why can't they merge latin or french or portugueue and basically any language that uses the anglo-saxon alphabet to be pronounced the same bloody way?!

Anyway, Descartes is famous for the title of this post "Cogito ergo sum" = "I think, therefore I am". Whenever I think of this phrase, I am reminded of wonderful movie Sophie, whom the name by the way, does refer to the Sophists, a group of philosophers in pre-modern eras that are very very very good rhetorics. In any case, from the phrase itself, one can understand everything about life, about the world because as long as what you believe what you see is real, it is real. So if you can think out a balloon floating horizontally across your room with no wind blowing whatsoever and then suddenly it turns into a hedgehog, a flying one - it is real.

Today's rambling.

It was not my intention to continue this blog. I lied. It was my intention to continue writing in this blog but it was not my intention to leave it alone for so long. Sometimes, things caught up, or you caught up to your work your life your school your everything and you just do not have time for something else. I am often a victim of such distress. In all disdainful events, there will always come one where you do not think it was such until you notice under the stark stare of the mother sun that you are indeed in a very idiotic situation.

I myself was in such a very idiotic situation once, where I was very sure what I was fighting for, arguing for was correct. Now to digress once again, what is 'correct' to you could be universal - or it could not be. In this case, we have to bring in what's-his-name, yes Kant. Immanuel Kant, with all due respect to his name, was a .. german philosopher. Basically he says that there's a white and black to all morality in this world, and therefore there's a correct or wrong in every instance and, its something that's universal. While Kant deals with ethics I deal with truth, which invariably everything is the same. If you judge something to be idiotic, and the universe judges it to be so, you are CORRECT.

Now to return to what I was saying.. but I forgot. Cloxacilin I can't remember the name but it has Cloxa inside, one of the antibiotics that I am eating now is extremely, superflabbergastedly, disturbingly, nauseasatingly, disgusting to eat. OF course its not difficult to eat but rather the effects after you eat it. You feel totally gassy and you want to fart all the time, you feel super nausea too. The good thing is - you dont feel like eating and its a very good way to reduce your fats.

Ah but no, the constant after-taste of something extremely bitter at the back of your throat (and this is almost 10 hours since I ate the pill) makes you want to eat something sweet to cover it. And this means calories and calories means ... you get it.

To end my post today, the original intention of this was to practise my typing and to inject some English back into my life. As one writes his/her report, more often than not, one loses his/her way and starts to do something else. I could recall thousands and thousands of instances where I was doing my report or revision and I ended up on youtube or playing a game or playing the piano and then, eventually sleeping.

Interesting fact of this month: Did you know that your sports potential is hereditary? No matter how hard you train, your potential is only so much and one of the parameters to measure it is VO2max. Premier league soccer players have a VO2max of about ~70, while cross-country skiiers have the absolute highest : ~>90. I know I have close to 0. And - to lose fats, do low-intensity exercises, like slow slow jogging. As long as you are exerting too much, you are entering anaerobic phase and no no , thats not burning fats. Thats burning carbohydratesssssssssssss.

Death LAGOON Update 2

2009-05-03T16:10:00.005+08:00

Konnichiwa minasan.

We have yet another update to the death lagoon. There is a new progression.

The 'pond' has since been stabilised until yesterday. Here is what happened:
I've 4 F8 puffers and 1 Dwarf Puffer which have lived out their usefulness as puffer require intense snail feeding. Therefore they were sacrificed to the pond. It is common knowledge that wild puffers are toxic and should not be eaten, however aquaria puffers are inbred and are not toxic - because they are unable to feed on the poisonous bacteria that is responsible for much of their notoriety.

However, I was proven wrong by the death of 2 Spotted Gars, an Arowana and a Shovel nose. All measured about 10 inches. As you know a spotted gar at 22" fetches a hefty $200 per piece. This is a great loss. In order to confirm that the loss was a result of consumption of the puffer, as usual, an autopsy was carried out. The goal was simpler this time, just check the stomach and see whether there were puffer remains.

From this point on word there may be gruesome pictures. You are warned.
Credits to my sister for helping me take the pictures. Thank you.

A comparison of the dead fishes was set up with a 6" ruler for measurement. They are all roughly 10" from tail to head.

There was alot of grime on the fishes. It is a natural protective covering.

The shovel nose was chosen as the victim because 1) it has a big belly that is easier to cut,

2) it does not have teeth and merely devours the subject (with its big mouth), making the chances of an intact puffer higher for identification

First step is to wash the victim

Second step is to make an incision along the belly

Third Step: Use a finger and pull open the belly then cut along laterally

The stomach is exposed and looks good.

Fourth Step: Take out the stomach with fingers. It looks like there's a puffer inside undigested

Fifth Step: Cut open the stomach from its head and the puffer was confirmed.

The rest of the fishes were not cut up to preserve some form in nirvana.

It is interesting that the puffer remains undigested. This suggests two modes of death for the shovel nose: The puffer either puffed up after devouring, causing pain to the shovel which ended up in its death (but which the stomach remains intact), or toxins were released in some other way causing the death of the shovel nose. Either way, the main cause is the puffer.

Conclusion: The introduction of puffers to a freshwater pond has caused the death of 4 carnivorous predators - 2x spotted gars, 1x arowana, 1x shovel nose. Do not feed puffer to your fishes as it is likely to cause the predator's death.

Death Lagoon UPDATE

2009-02-18T22:58:00.002+08:00

みなさん、こんにちは。今日、また英語を使うことです。

This is a short update on Death Lagoon.

Apparently, after the incident, Death Lagoon (DL) has somewhat become a hospitable environment. I've took the tilapia and disposited it away safely in another place, and bought lots of plants to place in the pond. Please come and have a look my friends, it will be interesting I swear.

Current spendings on pond : $300 approx.

Fishes availabe:
1. 10~12 x Africans Chichlids of various colors and patterns
2. 1 x Arowana youngling (was 2x)
3. 2 x Albino polypterus bichir
4. 1 x Dark Spotted polypterus bichir
5. 2 x Lepisosteus oculatus (spotted gar, they really look like alligators now)
6. 15~20 x Gyrinocheilus aymonieri (Chinese Algae Eater)
7. 2 x Toxotidae jaculatrix (Archer fish)
8. 15~20 x Red Tetra (was 100 but got eaten gradually)
9. 2 x Red Lobster
10. 3 x Common Crab
11. 4 x LXX Catfish
12. ~5 x Black Widow (was 12)
13. ~4 x Pink Chichlids that look really like red parrot youngling
14. 1 x Pipefish (looks like a sea horse for now)
15. 2~4 x Freshwater snake/eel (not sure)
16. An assortment of other random things (cant remember)

Yes the bioload is extremely heavy on the pond, and 90% of the time I can't see all the fishes. But after camping there for 30 mins (most of the time), i could see about 80% of them. Tetras are really hard to get by now..

Oh.. and I was shocked 2 days ago when one of the arowanas got eaten by the spotted gar. i just can't believe my eyes when I saw it right in front of me. Arowanas are supposed to be king of waters! Ok that was a lie , but I was still sad. It was good money gone to waste..

Death of 12 Fishes in DEATH Lagoon

2009-01-06T16:09:00.006+08:00

Today I went to get my plants for my fish pond, which is a 1,000 litre preformed pond. There were originally 16 fishes inside. 3 didnt make it past day 2, but the rest made it to day 7. 1 fish is a Tilapia measuring about a 0.8m across, and has been there for nearly 8years, giving it a grand total of 13 fishes.

Before I went to get my plants, I told my maid to wash another fish tank, but she mistaken it to be the fish POND, and she changed like 50% of teh water.

12 fishes died. 1 fish remains.

It is a sad day for the fishes of this pond, which I have nicknamed the Death Lagoon. Many have came , many have died. So far only the tilapia survives a water change. Fishes are extremely intolerant to water changes it seems.

Naturally, the investigator in me prompted for an investigation. Since I lack the instruments to measure pH, trace salts content, salinity, temperature, %O2, and etc. I dissected the dead fish to see if any disease has set in to account for the intolerance to water change.

Results: Besides showing some necrosis at the gill area, all fishes look normal. Tongue color OK, belly contents OK, gills OK, eyes OK. A few fishes look a little bloated but that's to be expected. Dead fish sink properly, suggest absence of endongenous gas producing bacter.

Conclusion: Due to water change, % chlorine could be alot higher amongst other factors, fish is unable to cope with change of conditions and died gasping for air as a result of damaged gills (recall that gills are directly exposed to aquatic environment), consistent with necrosis in gills.

Future plan: Wait for 3 days for water to settle before continuation. Remove chlorine from water via sodium thiosulphate treatment. Watch for plant growth or death. Continue with fish introduction.

Pictures:

Dead fishes taken out of pond for floatability inspection

Shot 2

Measurements of Assorted Fish

Unknown Fish - 10.4 cm

Bala Shark - 9.4 cm

Cheap Koi - 12.5 cm

African Chicild - 4.2 cm

Dissection of Cheap Koi

Other gruesome pictures are not uploaded.

Vodka

2008-11-22T13:07:00.002+08:00

If there's one thing you can trust - it's Belvedere Vodka.

Rated @ 40% Alcohol, it tastes more like 15% Alcohol. Good stuff indeed, you will never be drunk.

Belvedere Vodka - You will never get drunk

life almost flew away~

2008-10-19T21:28:00.002+08:00

it's one of those times when u truly felt that your life was near the edge. I went to cycle in Bukit Timah Nature Reserve Moutain Bike Trail. My God, being my first trail , i had no idea it would be this difficult. Most of the upslopes are literally energy depleting. By the time I reached near the summit, I was feeling giddy and nausea due to the lack of oxygen. There were too many trees and it was 7pm. Darkness was coming in fast and i couldn't move. I felt like if I inched one more step i would faint. But it was good, my friends were there for me, so I rested and the reached the summit. It was beautiful. Well worth the climb. The down hill was exciting and many times I almost , almost went into the endless dark slopes. But I survived, downrocketing at neck breaking speeds. It was gerat.

161st Post

2008-10-13T22:37:00.003+08:00

I realise its my 161st post... Can't cope with my studies (never thought I would actually be saying this) but yes, I can't. Not until I give up gaming and some additional activities then can I say i'm coping with my studies. 2 projects draw near and one of the projects is literally a solo work, since the other team members seem to be non-chalant about it. I can't afford to get any more Cs if I hope to get a research project for my 3rd year. But I cant help feeling that I'll get a C or 2 this semester. Still finding it very difficult to think nowadays, my head still feels like its in a mud pool, sometimes it gets a little painful. I'm not sure. Hopefully if I adapt a earlier sleeping time and having done (and doing) several changes to my lifestyle, the problem will go away.

Add two more pictures. All taken using IXUS 80 with CFW.

Family-side: Isnt getting any better. It's impossible to say at this moment what will become of it. Everyone is just too different. And they don't seem to understand we're all different and we must respect each other. Cohesion doesn't come from a common goal, rather, it comes from an understanding of our differences. Or maybe both.

Many of you could be more unfortunate than me. But fear not, hang on to your beliefs and face the new future that awaits you!

New Insights in Cancer

2008-10-08T00:01:00.002+08:00

Why do people hate cancer? Why do people devise means and ways to suppress cancer? Has not Nature shown us that we're always evolving to be better? Why do we fight?

All to destroy Gods.

I believe that cancer is nature's way of making us becoming immortal. All past events have pointed to this. Do not expect me to draw statistical lies, useless graphs, diagrams. It is just it is. Cancer is the way to becoming immortal. Up till now, everyone has failed. Maybe someday, someone will. But if we keep trying to suppress it, we'll never become immortals.

And now I think I've something going on in my head. Could be a tumor. But lately, I havent been able to think properly, always in a blockade. Understanding things become very difficult, thinking became a muddy task. Maybe its my time... I dont know.

Problem Child

2008-09-22T14:11:00.000+08:00

there is no satisfaction in doing things alone

Headache

2008-09-01T20:43:00.003+08:00

Reminescence. I have forgotten how to spell not the word.

And this is one of the receipts dating back from May 2008 in Tokyo. Surprising that I still have it!

頭がおかしくなっちゃうは決めたんだよ、この後で。

Curse

2008-08-25T20:28:00.005+08:00

Call it a malediction, or a curse. It doesn't matter. The ethereal cool air those nights, succulent with the most dulcet and sweetest of breeze, coupled with the occassional blink of sunlight, made me forget where I placed my preciouse pencil case. Imbued with jejune languor, I refused to believe I've lost it till today. I was right to think so. It was like this loquacious whisper that was also like a neverending drum, always adumbrating to me that I've lost it, every hour, every minute. And I spent the dear $30 today to restock an inventory with a $9.95 case. And then by the end of the day, like some sneaky little mouse that had surreptitiously creeped up on my shoulder, it dawned to me that it was possible after all that I've misplaced it. And then my brother revealed the greatest plan, like the epiphany that had dawned upon Newton, that it was all along in the car. Distraught, hackened with pain and sorrow, I could only sit dumbfounded, inuring to the mellifluous warm words of "Ten Years" erstwhile.

Give My Love

2008-08-14T23:25:00.005+08:00

It's a long time since I blogged with more words than pictures. I guess this is one of those times when I'm suddenly grabbed by an unseen hand by the arm and forced to write. We had a talk that lasted an hour and a half. Like some holy conscience that descended upon me from above, I took the initiative and began the ritual of questions and self exploration. It was long and there were awkward moments, but understanding was reached. I remembered how dark and quiet the night was, broken by the occassional slap of the wind against the window panes. Refreshing it in my memories, I find myself injecting new forms of advertisement and descriptions which I could not have possibly grasped up till now. A new start has begun again although one could only wonder how long it can last before it ends.

I wonder whether it was purely chance that brought us into this world. As much as I want to believe that as we were as champions, little sperms that were struggling in that life-or-death swim towards the eggs that have won, i also believe that it was an entire chance position. Life as itself, in an unfathomable depthless entity continues to intrigue me and prevent me from givign up on it. Confidence built upon layers of experiences of joy, love, remorse, guilt and strikingly nonsensical ideas was given and rewarded to those who are willing to brave the new fronts. As much as I want to hold you and tell you how much I envision in our future and the plans I have for it, it was not easy, my throat constantly choked and without words. Yes , like the song without words, it was an act without words, just electricity shooting randomly, all but hitting us.

Sitting down here, I also realise the sheer enormity of having slacked the entire 3 months of holiday away, including the slow, agonising first week of school. While everyone around me has frantically began to pick up books, in a mad rush to remain the top students, I have all but remained a himono otoko (dried fish man), trapped in the merciless cycle of Lazy. It has come, the new semester and with it, new challenges of which I have sworn to fight against. The intensity of this cruel entry into yet another semester has reminded me of my past failures. I picked up my abandoned highlighter, which was surprisingly still working well, and began to read pages of books which were once uninteresting and dull to me. The wonders of the science world slowly fall back into place, like a domino train, it slowly cascaded and took me unabashed with it into this amazing universe where so many have went unknowing of its vivacious lure and never returned. Interest is cultivated, and my pitiable soul was entangled by these white lines of pure fire. Yet even then, I hope that I can reach out with what left of my feeble strength, and show you the wonders which heaven has so granted me. I want to share with you the splendour and tango of this world.

J o k e R e D

2008-07-27T17:57:00.002+08:00

Shattered

2008-07-20T14:09:00.001+08:00

It's all gonna come apart, very soon.

Still not Ending!

2008-06-13T13:51:00.001+08:00

I thought it might actually end.. but it doesnt! Just ystd someone bumped his car into the swift's front. damage is slight, but time has to be wasted in going down to workshop to fix. saving grace is that he owned up and pasted a note on the car. wanted to upload pic but car plate nubmer.. not good haha.

Continues

2008-06-10T21:41:00.001+08:00

IT continues. Now Apple announces that the new 3G Iphone will sell for $199 USD worldwide (8gb) and $299 USD (16gb). My phone which used to cost $500-$800 now cost less than $250, assuming brand new. How sad?

A Series of Unfortunate Events

2008-06-08T22:44:00.005+08:00

I don't know if there's a japanese equivalent for this phrase, but life has not been that forgiving and instead has been rather harsh the past week. Thankfully, I have my bro to go through this with me, and of course, the rest of the family. In chronological order:

1. A screwed up moded Wii.

So I bought a Wii from queensway shoppin centre. The auntie there said it was wiikey (the name of the mod) the other time I inequired and when I went there the 2nd time (which aws about 3 weeks later) it was an uncle (her husband) and he said he didnt know what mod it was. So I made the sinfully wrong assumptuion that it will be the same. It turned out to be an unknown modchip caleld "wii like" which im sure is just a wiikey clone that cannot be updated.

The Wii ($590 total)

2. Iphone spoils ($500-$600 deal)

I spent a great deal of time tinkering with the Wii and I really really had to do alot of trial and error. And on the last day of trials, I dropped my iphone and it was destroyed. Bottom half screen can no longer work even though it displays perfectly.

3. Jap-phone turned scam ($550 deal)

I bought a jap-phone, a Docomo P905I from vr-zone forums. I've always wanted a j-phone. Guy assured me (as was his advert) that working condition is 10/10 and physical condition is 9/10 (with the 9 being one minor scratch which I couldnt even see). On the testing day, everything was perfect. It remained perfect for another day utnil the 3rd day, when things started to go wrong. The phone would auto-shutdown for no reason, be it clammed shut, half-way thru smsing, left open without any keys pressed.. And "hypersim ready" sign would pop up every now and then. I tried tinkering with the settings and now the phone wouldnt connect to GSM network. (Hypersim is the bypass for local sim cards to work with the phone)

The Phones, Left to Right: Nokia Old, Nokia Old 2, Iphone, P905I, box of P905I , top is hypersim container. (Total : $1400++)

Close up of the keypad of P905I

So i'm left with the old nokia phones to use. Interesting what you can count on when things go wrong.

I liked the phones. T_T

To top it off, as I finish this post, my parents are shouting at each other. I really don't understand. I really don't.

And so it all ends

2008-05-27T15:42:00.011+08:00

Well, its not so bad. but it has ended, the 12 days of relaxation and exploration. now it is time to get back to reality. haha. a lazy slumber into the holidays. so let me continue the saga.

recall that i was double pangsehed by the duo during Friday. the last day (sat) i got an sms from ww tt he is coming back. okay, so apparently, he went to tsukuji market on his own decision @ 3 AM in the morning on a taxi, ate the best sushi he thought there was, and stayed at a hotel somewhere else and slept from 3 PM to 10 AM. what about wl? she came back with her 2 newly made frens at 12++am of Sunday, and totally ignored me, even tho the other 2 frens greeted me and asked abt the departure time and why am i not sleepin tt kinda usual formalities, dis wl just plain ignored. no idea what went wrong still man.

back @ home, there's some kinda war going on. dad trying to play angel again, mum becoming a devil and poking @ him everywhere possible. we all know dad is in the wrong, and i can only stand at the sideberth and watch. had karoake with sis and relatives yesterday evening to night. had to be a backup singer for almost all the songs! luckily the japan trip has trained my throat and it doesnt hurt at all xD

Pics, in no particular order:
Dis is great great great mega-muffin which is not available in singapore mcdonalds. Its a breakfast set that actually is more fattening than the singapore's any mcmuffin. just see for urself. its really nice too.

A poster of wanted criminals in Nikko (right side), advertisement for recruitment to police force (left)

Lush green and wonderful water along the residential areas of Nikko

The really really blue water under the bridge of Shinkyo, which is a sacred bridge that u are not allowed on unless you pay. which kinda defeats the sacredness.

U know u saw those pics of screwed up english right? here's one.

Shibuya at night. Ok it was a badly shaked picture but its still cool.

The park in Harajuku. not sure whats its name, but alot of ppl having picnic there. it was a sunday.

Ang Moh Kid caught on cam.

Asianz Kid caught on cam. haha

whats this.. a dog? yes it is a dog. its sold for 200,000 yen btw (about 2.6k sgd)

Really cool advertisement/art I saw in Shibuya backstreet.

Bunch of people who look like Naruto cosplay.. but its actually some festival happening in the MIDDLE of Shibuya that stretched for quite abit. 2km?

Lots of girls, and its 99% girls, fangirls of a boyband in Harajuku. Their voice isnt amazing, they dont really look good too, wonder whats their charm?

Cosplayers? Dont knwo what u call dis, but its in Harajuku.

Free huggers that got physically defeated. Haha.

What you call dis.. Almost-skyscraper-level posters of anime? Damn cool.

Young girls taking picture of temple.

Here's the random schoolgirl on the streets of Shibuya on a weekday afternoon. Did they have skip school? Hard to say.

Two dogs from two totally strangers. They went to each other and decide to have their dogs lash out at each other.

Ninja kiddo at the queue area of Ueno zoo. Caught on cam.

Yet another schoolgirl (for some reason there are no or very little schoolboys) drawing in Ueno Zoo. There's alot of them all around.

Lovely kids in Ueno Zoo. They are more attractive than the animals there :x

Kid who got knocked out. He was there for quite awhile.

Kid amazed by his own shadow.

Salamander. Cool Cool Cool.

Yes the great Todai. Forgot the campus name but its the one for undergraduate. It was really cool to walk in this uni.

Ok here ends this long list of pictures. There's a ton more for subscribers only. The kids in Japan are so spastic they end up being so cute. Not sure what to say about that..

b o r e d

2008-05-23T12:46:00.010+08:00

had an incident two nights ago when a Thai staying at the hostel came back to report that his wife of 26yo is missing @ Ueno from 930pm. after overhearing their long-heated but otherwise pointless discussion, I decided to go search for his wife at the Ueno station instead of waiting for the police. It was 12am+ therefore have to walk there as the train stations are closed. wl came along. it was about a 30 min walk to Ueno from Asakusa. to our luck, found the wife at the ueno station, she has waited patiently for her husband to come back to her for nearly 3 hrs! had some fun chatting with the local police and the higher rank plainsclothes police and the conflict was resolved. their police can be really nice people and badasses. and they are very careful. even when the plainsclothes police come and collect the girl, they dont want to let him (the local ones) as they must make sure its the real police. anyway, was a really dramatic scene as we saw the two couples hug and cried. x)

on tokyo: the more u think about it, Tokyo's nothing much. It's just a bigger version of Singapore - that means wider variety of clothes, cars, people, personality, problems, and such. buildings are also alot bigger, and the heritage is very much older. that's what I like most about Japan, the shrines and stuff. The newer fashionists kinda gets on my nerves.

on my predicament: got double backstabbed by ww and wl today when i woke up to find both of them disappeared from the hostel. plan was to meet at 630am in hostel then go tsukuji market but all of them are gone! smsed ww and he said he will be back TMR. like wtf. is this sad or what? rofl. didn even bother to sms wl with her pms attitude. she never replies anyway, just to save that few cents so she can spend on more clothes. Therefore, here am I, camping in the hostel with red-alert amount of money, wasting time away like a true nipponjin! ^_^ (btw, i'm not angry or anything)

i tried uploadin pics just now and it hung. 2nd try and it worked but really upload very slow.

The area where i'm staying in - Asakusa. Some people stay it is a tourist trap but I dont think so. There are many nice people here and I havet encountered any ridiculously priced items..

Here's a shot of Sakura flower in Chuzenji. What luck to find it XD

A nice bowl of udon

Akihabara

An old man being lead on by a 'maid' !!

oh and I forgot to mention. I entered Todai (aka tokyo university, #1 in Asia) yesterday :) the number of pretty chicks and handsome dudes dramatically decreases as the intellectual threshold goes higher it seems. haha, juz like in SG. its a place where alot of people are studying, everywhere on benches, libraries, canteen... pics are in my cam and cant be uploaded atm.. went past a few of their ENGLISH classes and I could spot mistakes on the blackboard instantly. now we know why their english sucks.

took me a really long time to upload the pics. back in sg it will be easier. so laters for now. i'm actually missing SG. gonna get myself some mee pok with more spicy more mee :P

also, heard that things are going very badly at home.. i feel helpless there's nothing i can do abt it. its not something we can do about? or can we do something about it? hang in there..

getting bored!

2008-05-21T21:22:00.002+08:00

not bad. i think i've assimilated into japan, and understand more about their culture and lifestyle. There are many things that are different, weird even, and exotic here, and is very hard to put into words. Descriptions are never enough, come to Jpn to experience for urself XD

Bought a kimono/yukata today @ 12800 yen, abt $168 SGD. Its very nice. So from today until last day i'll be on budget mode!

so i'm getting bored. no money makes you a dull man in japan. well there cheap stuff, but it never gets too cheap, its just plain above 300 yen haha, and transport is quite a bit of money too. camped most of my day in the hostel (went out at 10, came back at 4, slept until 10pm...) its becoming like an ordinary life instead of a tourist life!

Short Update

2008-05-17T21:10:00.002+08:00

Alright, before my time runs out in this cybercafe (http://www.gcc-bagus.jp/) i am going to do a short update. Visited Nikko the past one day and half of today, and went to shibuya after. Nikko has to be one of the more relaxing places, and the Hotori-an inn is a nice, very comfortable, and quiet place, with gushing water constantly sounding in the background. Shibuya is very busy, and the renowned cross roads that you can walk anywhere when the green man is on is really infamous. Very fun to just walk for lameness. Very hip stuff here too, i feel too old for this stuff. Prices are high too. Will look for whale meat the next time i get here as planned.

So far, I havent bought much stuff here. Most of the money was spent on food and accomodation and transport. Each meal at the very least costs 500 yen (abt $6~~ SGD), and i usually go above 1000 yen ($13~~SGD). Hoping to reduce that. haha.

This cybercafe i am in is very well furnished. Got insane amoutns of comics, lots of DVDs movies, games, and the internet here is very fast. Speedtest with SG Server showed 40mb/s download rate and 4.5mb/s upload rate. Amazing isnt it.

Oh, finally, there are alot of pretty girls in Japan too. Dressed up to the max too. Now its kinda like normal already. haha. Laters.

First Day in Japan

2008-05-15T00:36:00.002+08:00

So i managed to reach Khaosan Smile !!! So happy. Our first day here, we drank some very strong whiskey, and wei wei has been destroyed. frankly, i'm perfectly fine, dunno why also. innate power? so bro and sis if u read dis dont tell mum and dad hor.

our flight was faster than the stated time, even if there were some delays. 1015 ard there set off from singapore, then reach hong kong at about 1420 hrs, transit took abit of time as there was a crowd, by the time we entered CX500 (HKG -- JPN) it was already 1455 hrs (supposed to report at 1440 last call). but its ok since it was crowded (everyone else was delayed also). so we went in, and it was another 3 hrs flight, finally reached Narita airport at 2000 hrs. there was delay there too , taxiing around for 20-30 mins. Expected time was actually 2015 hrs. so we were still earlier by 15 minutes.

when we actually reached there, called Smile (the hostel we were supposed to stay in), and told them we gonna check in late during the queueing up for passport check. It was really long and it seems they are doing overtime too ( the staff). wonder what went wrong. Later, we asked one of the train dudes what train to take to asakusa. we were told to take to AOTO and then change train to Asakusa. It was kinda fun, ticket costs $14 SGD each, took about 1 hr 20 minutes total time. Really fun and exciting cos we didnt know if we took the correct train. we went and just stopped at AOTO as was told, and then we just took the opposite train without knowing whether it will reach Asakusa. jheng it did X) Used some of my learnt japanese on the way, it was good to know japanese after all xD

when we reached Smile, which took abit of navigation, we foudn the rooms really small and narrow. but that was expected in a way, u get what u paid for ($30/night). heng there's free internet (4 coms in total) and its usually occupied. so i'm only typing this in the wee hours :p 0200 hrs where everyone else has retired or gone .

we decided our first night in tokyo cant be spent to simply just sleeping. wanted to stay till 4 am, but wei wei couldnt take it after drinking the first whiskey which was really , admittedly powerful, and he said to sleep first. shower is supposedly on 2nd level but its locked, dunno how to go in as we are late check-in. so my first nite, is unfortunately without showering lmao.

THE REST OF THE 10-11 days will be fun! hope i'll have a chance to update. weiling will be joinig us tomorrow at 1000-1200 hrs at asakusa station. hopefully, we are awake by then. i'm really quite scared of dis part. haha.

no pictures as of now, because i have no USB connector. forgot to bring, and damn that weiwei never say he bringing laptop. maybe i'll buy one tmr at akihabara. gd nite X)

life and wildlife

2008-05-11T14:00:00.006+08:00

What better way but pictures to explain?

Random Bug found in house

Bat

Random Bug

Break

Flower

Bullfrog

Some Monkey

Lempur

A green bug

Here's my personal favourite, bunch of monkeys:

All pictures were taken with the Canon Digital IXUS 860.
lmao.

Exams are over

2008-05-03T22:52:00.003+08:00

And so, exams are over.

So i did some de-stress and got myself a nice little plushie.

and... look what entered the kitchen on Saturday Noon!

Maximum Study

2008-04-21T20:37:00.002+08:00

there are many things I wanna post about, but first, maximum study!

to define maximum study:
like maximum speed, maximum strength, maximum armor, maximum study is a time when ur studying skills are at its best. for a normal person it can last up to 4 hrs, but for a hyperactive person like me, it can last 30 minutes.

hopefully, these 30 mins will be the one that will allow me to succeed and get my Bs! ( no more aim for A rofl).

最大限に勉強！
いったい何物でしょうか。最大限に勉強、最高速度と最強力　見たい、一番強い能力を持っている時間だ。普通な人間は、もともと４時間でございる。だが、わしになれば、３０分もう　終わりのじゃ。

まさか　わしにはこの３０分もう十分　かも、期待しているのじゃ！

a divided family

2008-03-21T11:07:00.004+08:00

aha.. a recent barrage of posts, due to the stress from examinations and deadline due for lots of essays. anyhow, today, in a short post (since i only have about 5 minutes), to analyse the reasons behind a divided family.

has there ever been shown that there's an association with a certain type of personality and a divided family? First, let's define some terms. What makes a family broken or divided? As the word implies, it means that the individuals inside the family do not give a shit about each other and/or lack communication, care only for themselves, mount a layer of tatemae (建前) even when next to each other. A lack of security and self-being, among other things. You get the drift.

Personality associated with the parent, either the Dad or the Mum, usually leads to a certain type of personality being passed down to the kids, regardless of whether it be genetical, or societal. Therein of course, the cause and effect cycle. The main problem lies with the parents. If a parent has a lot of 'face', and is very stubborn (as is the typical japanese family), often this results in a divided family. However, hardly any research has been made into this, mainly because it is not easy.

And hence, we have the typical kid planned the activities for the entire weekend to catch up with schoolwork, a really sincere one, only to be destroyed by a parent's whim to make his/her kid work the weekends off, often at low wages or none at all. Not that it matters when one has failing grades, you don't really care about money anymore right?

The philosopher would say, that everything will work out in the end. A true man (or woman) will be able to sort out the complications and emerge stronger.

Yes. Often true of strong minded people.

But what of those of weak resolve, and disease to accompany them with? Many a times, I've witnessed great people with great personality fall prey to diseases and circumstances.

Such paradoxical world.

Knowledge of the World

2008-03-18T20:42:00.002+08:00

Why is it that the more I study the sadder I become?

何でもっと勉強して悲しくなる?

やっぱりできへん

2008-03-16T01:31:00.002+08:00

well.. I've not adhered to the 1 hr rule for a few days now. plus the occasion few days from before, i'm starting to lag quite abit. Tests are shooting up too. Argh. I decide to.. burn the human oil. I've failed.

実に面白いだ (Truly Interesting)

2008-02-27T12:52:00.002+08:00

Seeing as I've dedicated one hour of my life each day to revising and studying, I've more or less kept up with what was going on in the school. However, there is the problem of being paired up (by twist of fate) with a previous gold medalist, and by God, he is truly amazing. He's by far, the only person I know that reads so much and do so much work behind the scenes that I cannot comprehend the possibility on whether I can ever reach his level. Probably not. Our aims are different. To give an example, by week 3 of the semester, he has read 5-6 books on EACH subject. wonderful, isnt it.

Anyhow, adhering to that 1 hour each day is actually more difficult than it seems. Often just when i'm about to start the ball rolling, something comes up (such as duty driver, or a chat on msn which leads very long), end up I've less time and I just browse through. Though the time spent is the same, u somehow realise within yourself that it could have been spent better if you have concentrated better.

Also, there is the question of how one retains what one has read. I find that I've close to zero memory retention (possibly an effect after army), even though other people do not seem to have such problems. I attribute such condition, if i may call ti, to be related to a lack of closed attention.

Truly, uni life one would expect to be filled with fun and love but it is actually filled with lots of readings, revision, and money spent. You cannot comprehend how much money one has to spend on books alone. Borrowing from library is one thing but one will probably end up photocopying the entire book (copyright infringement yes) which costs $20 at least.

On Organic Chemistry- this subject is a big NO NO for me. And it's really maths in the end. Lots of practice. I often wonder how is it useful for my course this subject when i have biochemistry. Pfftt. I must thank Junxin, for he has given me lotsa help in this subject during the past month. Thank you bro, it's a wonder we still have good relations after so many years of non-contact lol.

On whether to remain in university- Well, I've sorta achieve a balance in this. Back 1 semester ago, I had no desire whatsoever to continue in university life. I still feel now, in part to that, that there is no meaning (意味がないと言う) in continuing university other than to obtain a degree, and to prove to myself that I can do that. IT's become from a daily thought-struggle to a monthly review of the validity of this life. At least it doesnt take too much nonsense-time this time round. I'll be, hopefully, administering in one of the projects my Dad thought of (related to sales), and this will become another part of my life.

In conclusion, facebook is truly interesting.. and some pictures.

My current desktop picture

Starfish from Changi Beach

Mooncrab Dead

Gastropod (Snail)

なにか？

2008-02-12T01:47:00.000+08:00

今日は朝からハプニング！
ぽわわんは、冷蔵庫から牛乳やバター
ハム、もう片方にパンを。
あれもこれも一度に手に持って
やってしまいました！Σ(°д°lll)ｶﾞｰﾝ
バターを落とした！
容器のフタが開いて、少しのバターが
床へ。。(◎皿◎)
ぽわわんとしたことが。。(*´д｀)=з
それが、ぽわわんなんですけど、なにか？
(*＞∀＜*)

My Christmas Tree

2008-01-03T12:19:00.000+08:00

Dystopia 「絶望」

2007-11-25T14:19:00.000+08:00

Here comes Roger Wilco Jr,Sr,XP (now vista compatible), Phd, MD, Bsc (Hons), etc., again! Today we discuss about Dystopia, which according to a dictionary is defined as "a society characterized by human misery, as squalor, oppression, disease, and overcrowding."

Roger Wilco Jr,Sr..(etc) disagrees however, because he thinks that dystopia comes from the word "despair"! And what does this means? This means that despair can create an environment, or an imaginary world, in which everything perceived by the imaginer (sp?) appears to be characterized by MISERY AND LACK OF HOPE. It is written in chinese as "jue wang" and in japanese as "zetsubou". The kanji are the same.

Such onset of dystopia can be a direct result of mental trauma, such as that of an exam that is exceedingly difficult and destroys all hope a student has, or a self-induced disease in which the imaginer (sp?) carves a world of complete darkness and devoid of happiness and somehow casts himself into the world, believing it to be real.

The author of this blog has been affected by the former, and thus Roger Wilco is here once again to take over the annoyance of updating a blog. Here comes the usual interview style, over a supposed telephone line:

Roger Wilco: Is everything alright there, owner?
Owner: Yes I think.. it looks dark around me and.. (trails off)
Roger Wilco: Was the exam really that ownage?
Owner: No, not really.. maybe a D grade or .. (trails off again)
Roger Wilco: Are you sure your okay?!
Owner: (Lots of static and finished with a beep)

As you can see, Roger Wilco is unable to deduce any form of happiness emanating from our author, and it is thus concluded that he has entered Dystopia! Now for our next update, we wait to see whether he will come out of Dystopia unchanged, changed for the better, changed for the worse, or will he come out at all.

--
Signing off,
Roger Wilco Jr,Sr,XP (now vista compatible) Phd, MD, Bsc (Hons) .. etc.

a day before an exam

2007-11-24T00:20:00.000+08:00

it's the day before the exam (or rather, the day itself it's 1227am), i should really be doing my final revision.. but I find myself being distracted by the slightest of things and read about 1 page per hour - to this, it accentuates the fact that I'm not ready to study. And I've wasted too much time this semester it's an effect irrevocable and not repairable.

i'll probably get D-C grades this semester, and I shall make a resolution for next semester to dedicate an hour each day to revise what I've learnt that weeek/day. should I have something on, i'll dedicate 2 hours to that day before or after to compensate. i'm simply not the type that can study alot in the wee hours now, not like last time when it was easy to absorb. i blame the army for this and myself for my weak character.

the purpose in life, to which that eludes many of us, yet has always been there. could be just to live life as one would envision to be courageous and a memory worthy to others. indeed, such ideas are supported and created by the society we live in. to once again re-discover myself, i must walk around the world with my two feet, touch what will be before me, and feel for myself how big the world truly is, how insignificant such worrying thoughts are.

Pictures again!

2007-11-09T12:18:00.000+08:00

Well here comes at assortment of pics from my house..

First up...

My computer!! Check out the disgusting thing logged.. its the GPU.

Here's a ship found in my hse.. not sure how it landed there though. POTC?

A painting in my house. No, wait. It's actually a JIGSAW puzzle!

And lastly... its the cake.

The SwiFt

2007-11-05T23:06:00.000+08:00

And.. time to publish a few pictures. Been a very long time since I did so!

Today's pics are related to the SWIFT :) which is the car i've been driving around...

emulsified

2007-10-13T01:59:00.000+08:00

I wonder if anyone stills read this blog? If someone does, I'm sure that person is a sentimental person.

Gradually, it holds truer and truer to me that i'm always looking to discover the psychology of humans. As i observe the way of how i myself handle stress, settlings things the typical way, I begin to think that these are traits parallel to other people too. As I looked at myself from a distant angle, with detached thought and emotions, I understood the people around me too. I understood people whom I have never met before as if they are my own kin. The ability to predict those humane reactions was all too straightforward, and sometimes the thought to pre-empt that which is easy to predict is so enticing that it lingers on treachery.

Oh yes, the desire to win is so challenging and thrilling. Like power. To win gives you triumph, and that is a sign of a tyrant. Rage.

Yet as time progresses, it becomes harder and harder to rediscover yourself and to rein your temper, your mischieviousness in. It becomes difficult to command your own body and one may not even realise it. Slowly, you realise that there's a stranger in you.

That stranger, imbued with a stoic nature and devoid of feelings appears to be strong all the time. Dependable. To execute things without hesitation, not afraid of failure, how remarkable. Slowly, you step aside and let the stranger take stride, allowing its majestic steps to invigorate you. And you bask in its glory, protected by its holy armor. Yes, like an invincible armor shrouded around you, hiding you at all times. But something feels wrong. Very wrong.

Because you aren't yourself anymore. You lose the side of you which your friends have counted on and came to trust, the irrational side of you rippling with weaknesses both physical and mental, that which they have come to understand and come to terms with. Someone whose will can be broken and then repaired is so tantalizingly lovable. Someone whom another can relate to is so regarded and treasured.

I often question myself.

Is being perfect a symbol of power? Or a symbol of the solitary? Or a symbol of sadness?

Is being not perfect good? Is it... irresistable?

As each of us strive towards perfection, such as that of scoring 100 points in an exam, surely we must question ourselves why do we do that? Does it serve a purpose? Yes I want to get into the Dean's good books, so says guy A. Yes I want to prove to myself I can do it, so says guy B. And lots of other reasons, all admirable and commendable. Yet often, if we break it down, maybe the real reason is, we just wanna do it. No reason. It's simply a want. Yea I want to achieve something. But ultimately, it's just a want. It may even bother on hypocrisy.

Inevitably, this post becomes dragged, repetitious and no longer serves a purpose. Each paragraph is alien to the other, and there are no conclusions, no ending. Such describes my life. Drifting around without a purpose, yet trying to find a purpose. Even at this point, it may seem revelatory, but it is just another hopeless, dignified way to end a post. And to this melancholic end, we pray.

~~and the last thought - why do people use strike throughs?~~

Life as a student again

2007-10-04T01:15:00.000+08:00

How do I put this across ? Life for me as a student has started again in early August, and about 2 months has passed since. I wasn't sure whether studying was for me then, I am still not sure now. There was no spiritual progress. These 2 months was akin to a long hideous, agonizing, slippery drop into a hole so dark, so utterly discouraging, that you wouldn't want to live life. Well I suppose I overexaggerated it a lot. I aint suicidal or anything like that. Just, often asking my purpose in life.

Or am I asking for a purpose in life, rather then what is my purpose. Lord I pray that the true purpose of life will come to me. And I shall do a little exercise described in a certain article to discover my own definition of my purpose in life.

An Utopian Society .. or not?

2007-03-09T21:55:00.000+08:00

I suppose, that for a long time I've not updated this little blog of mine. It is time I guess, when a person needs to share a little of what he has learned, or to express little nuances that he has been harbouring.

I'm very tired. I did a run two days ago, and I also did some push ups and sit ups along the way. I did some office work, and done some talking and played some games. But those are not the reasons why I'm tired. I'm because I've been thinking about my future. One person in this world, with a rather uncaring family, has to begin his first step into the terribly harsh world. He is at a crossroad, one which no matter which direction he takes, he will have to put in his best in it. If he made an error, he may not have the chance or the will to change his path - I'm that man who is in a fix, always questioning myself. What is my passion, what is the thing I would want to do for the rest of my life? Everyday, I ask myself this question, everyday I procrastinated and avoided answering it. I know, deep down, I want to be a man who's remembered by many. Yet, I'm also a lazy person, often not putting in my life for a subject. I almost always quit half way, and ended up doing a half-assed job.

Is this what I really am? A maggot?

Am I capable of more? How can I push myself?

I suppose that I've reached the point where playing games everyday does not satisfy myself anymore. I used to game 5 hours a day, and never care to think too much about my future. I was in a way, overly and overtly confident of my own abilities. I thought that it will never be too late, that procrastination is an art. I suppose I was naive. I could see the faults and flaws in others, I flogged the syncophants walking around, and try to extenuate my own disgust of myself. I now know all this has to end. Everything comes to an end.

I've no passion of anything besides learning. I want to spread this vital information, that the love to learn precedes over others. Yet I've my doubts. Am I right? No, I don't think I am. I've been living a life of desultory, often moving from one point to another without much of a thought.

I'm tired of thinking about all these things and doing nothing about it. I really want to scream and kill people. I really want to think less. I thought maybe, I know too much. I began to think, maybe ignorance is bliss after all.

I began to find objects and entities to blame. I asked myself, why is deciding a course to study so difficult? Why is it that the course I want to study in is so hard to get in? Why do they have to make it so hard? I wish this society was shaped by my ideas. I wanted it to be utopia, where everyone gets to do what they love to. Could such a world work? I wanted to believe it could. In some way, I created and theorised such a society, with many assumptions and lies to make it look like it could work. And again, I find myself in contradiction with myself. It seemed like once again, not only am I a selfish person, I lack the correct feelings. I seem to have this unusual proclivity of questioning myself alot.

I looked back at my past. Through this magical window, I saw how childish I was, and how incredulously stupid I was. How vastly vapid was myself I thought. And these are things I will never destroy nor remove. These are moments which I must remember and constantly reproach myself for. I must learn from my past and move. I must be on the move. Moving from this point which I've been stuck in for the past 15 years.

I'm really tired.

Deciding my personality

2006-02-20T22:26:00.000+08:00

Hi guys and girls,

please take a moment and visit these two urls:

http://kevan.org/johari?name=kefpwns
http://kevan.org/nohari?name=kefpwns

and do your very best to identify my weaknesses and strong points..

It would help in the development of my character. Thanks!

At the Driving Range

2006-01-10T21:35:00.000+08:00

Well, all's fine these few days. CNY is coming, it's been a great prospect. And our camp is upgrading it's computers! Finally! With less hangs and faster loading time, I'm sure i'll be able to enjoy doing work more now..

And the latest news, my average drive is about 236 yards now. I still can't break the 273 yards marker, but it will be soon. Now i'll need to strength my lower back muscles and all. Also of concern is my shortgame, geetting worse. Not as good with the 50m, 75m estimates. Too much driving..

Finally, in this new year, many people are saying out their resolutions. I say bullshit, everyday is a new year, it's just the mindset. As the saying goes , Cogito Ergo Sum, You are what you think.

Happy New Year

2006-01-07T01:42:00.000+08:00

I guess, it's happy new year. I suppose. But i'm not feeling any more happy than the previous day, or the previous year.

I have come to a final conclusions.

HUMANS ARE PATHETIC.

And thus, ends today's entry.

2005-12-25T12:54:00.000+08:00

And to top if off a wonderful christmas... My Godma's Son and well, my Godma.

2005-12-25T12:52:00.000+08:00

I find toilets interesting. Please don't question.

2005-12-25T12:50:00.000+08:00

The Ultimate, High Voltage Christmas Tree.

2005-12-25T12:48:00.000+08:00

People posing for Picture shots. Look at that!

2005-12-25T12:47:00.000+08:00

This is some Alien thing. Beware. There are Aliens @ Orchard.

2005-12-25T12:46:00.000+08:00

I'm oozing water from my mouth...zz

2005-12-25T12:45:00.000+08:00

Cars@Orchard, basically.

2005-12-25T12:44:00.000+08:00

Hand of God.

2005-12-25T12:43:00.000+08:00

Pretty Lights!

2005-12-25T12:41:00.002+08:00

Pretty Lights!

2005-12-25T12:41:00.001+08:00

SushiRestaurant.

2005-12-25T12:41:00.000+08:00

Forgot what Anime is this.. and the shop is deserted..

2005-12-25T12:39:00.000+08:00

iPod... owns.

2005-12-25T12:35:00.000+08:00

Wonderful Basin.. :)

2005-12-25T12:34:00.001+08:00

From the Front View.

2005-12-25T12:34:00.000+08:00

Carpark Fees...

2005-12-25T12:32:00.000+08:00

Zooming towards Orchard.

2005-12-25T12:30:00.000+08:00

The Hidden Tilapia from NP is still alive... except about 10X the size now...

2005-12-25T12:29:00.000+08:00

Xmas@Orchard: Chick (not sure what it is) in focus

2005-12-25T12:28:00.000+08:00

Xmas@Orchard

Comparisons

2005-12-25T12:22:00.000+08:00

Hi, i'm back. anyway, presenting a small comparison.

the undermentioned pictures are taken by the two respective cams. as can be seen, the nikon coolpix 5700 camera takes a very much warmer picture as compared to the canon ixus 40. settings are ABOUT the same :/

ok from Richard the great camera master, it seems that the shutter speeds are not the same , and the ixus 40 is maxed out somewhere. therefore it results in the below changes. so as can be seen, a good camera needs to be in the hands of a master to understand the details. heh.

anyhow, the reality is much closer to the nikon coolpix 5700 picture. therefore the nikon coolpix 5700 wins! huray. anyway a barrage of pics taken from the ixus 40 is coming up.

2005-12-25T12:20:00.000+08:00

Picture taken using the Canon IXUS 40

2005-12-25T12:19:00.000+08:00

Picture taken using the Nikon CoolPix 5700

Bing Bong! Roger Wilco's here!

2005-12-15T22:15:00.000+08:00

Ping Pong! Welcome back to the LIVE! Update of the Support Division. Here speaking is Roger Wilco Level 95, your reporter for today.

So what is this short interruption about? This is an update done for the owner of this blog because he is a most very busy person! Well, we all know that, but here's to share some of his business over the weeks! And if you havent already realise, business is the 'ness version of busy!

Ah, the job of a clerk. The job of a clerk, or an admin support personnel, is not an easy one. While it may have a lowly allowance of $350, with nearly zero access rights and privileges, not to mention having a rank that is way lower than anyone else, the company cannot live without them. And more so than ever, our dear owner is currently having a vocation as an ASA, or admin support assistant, which we must delved into the miseries of one so..

Yes, do take the word assistant seriously. He has assisted the job of the Documentation Side, the Chief Clerk (and yes, its the entire FORMATION's Chief Clerk, which means lots of work), the SO2 Manpower (yes he's in the manpower branch), the Registry, and basically everything in that little cozy room of theirs. No doubt he has the word 'Exploited' written over his head, he does not feel so. He's taking care of about 1500 people in the Support Division, with the miserly allowance of $350! Here's a short interview with the owner.

Roger : "Hi Owner, so why do you not feel you are exploited over at THERE?"
Owner : "You see, one of the core values which I have is to experience a lot of job scopes (appointments). As many as I can. I don't work for money (although some would be helpful), yes, that's why I don't feel the pinch that hard as others would in my case. Finally, I thought that these experiences would be most useful in developing both my character as an individual and to uptake more stress and improved ability."

In the short explanation, the owner has simplified his near 3 months of horror in THAT place into a paragraph of happiness and joyfulness over success. But is it really true? Roger Wilco thinks not! You see, there are some people who you can help and some you can't! There lives people who can appreciate what you do and some simply do not, that's why you have to thread your way lightly and be wary of people's evil intention. And in THAT place, 99.99% of the regulars are simply the latter. EVIL bunch.

But this discussion on the EVIL bunch will have to be postponed to the next update, as you can see, this update is supposed to be short. What with the little time the owner has nowadays, we can only hope I, Roger Wilco, can catch him on time. The next update will include on salaries, responsibilties, and actual workload.

----
Yours,
Roger Wilco, Jr, Sr, XP

kuox

2005-12-07T19:40:00.000+08:00

"Never offend people with style when you can offend them with substance."
--Sam Brown

Law of the Universe

2005-11-20T01:24:00.000+08:00

Who can give me the answer.. I'm searching for it.. forever and ever..

What is the Law of the Universe..?

全然　クレイーと

2005-11-08T23:14:00.000+08:00

いや、しかし、
今日、さんまのからくりテレビ見とったわけですが、
小倉優子がかわいい。
あいつの発言の飛び具合がかわいすぎる。

会話が成立しない。
だがそれがいい。

一家に一人いると
きっと毎日が楽しいに違いない。

しかし、部屋が、
いや、家全体がコリン星仕様に変えられる恐れがあるが。

それはそれで案外いいかもしれない。

とか考えてる時点で
若干、俺の頭が犯されつつある。

さすが小倉優子。
公共の電波を使用して攻撃するとは。

いや、そんなんどうでもええ。
整形疑惑とかもどうでもええ。

今がよければそれでよし。
整形でも手術でも何でも来い。

いや、じゃなくて。

つまりは、
土曜日のスウィングガールズがおもろかったわけです。
女子高生いっぱい。
最高！

・・・

ん？
何か前にもどっかで同じようなこと書いた気が・・・

いや、気のせい。
きっと気のせい。

スウィングガールズを映画館で見たことがあるとか
想い出の映画とか
テレビで見ながらいろいろ想いふけってたとか
そんなん気のせい。

いや、しかし、
女の子の訛りはイイね。
それが関西弁にしろ九州弁にしろ東北弁にしろ。
訛ってるだけでかわいい。

もし、東北弁の彼女とショッピングに行って
彼女が何かを指差しながら「これいぐね？」
とか言われた日にゃ、
「お前の方がいいぞコンチクショー」とかいって
抱きしめたくなる。

いや、だから、
女の子はとりあえず訛れ。
訛ればいいじゃないか。

小倉優子

追記。

ところで、このエントリのタイトルの
「なまら」って北海道弁で「めっちゃ」
って意味でっせ。

・・・と思う。確か。俺の記憶が正しければ。
そんなんやった気がする。

ﾙ-ﾄﾓｲﾁﾛ

2005-10-23T22:47:00.000+08:00

Day and After Rain

ﾙ-ﾄ

2005-10-23T22:46:00.000+08:00

The Power of the Darkness

Alive

2005-09-17T23:15:00.000+08:00

Just to let you know, I'm alive.

Today we try to solve the perplexing question of, what is the feeling of being stalked?

Well, to begin with, its not really a perplexing question nor is it really a question. It's really in the end just a "letting u know" session. The feeling of being stalked can arise from 2 occasions , a) when you are a paranoid person, b) when you are really being stalked and you can feel it yeh, or a combination of the two. Feelings you should feel if you are being stalked:
I) You seem to feel someone poring their eyes on you.
II) You are getting missed calls from unknown numbers.
III) People are everywhere but you dont feel safe.
IV) Receiving calls with nobody talking on the other end, maybe just the sound of train moving.
V) When you are sleeping in the night, or rather, preparing to sleep, you cant help but feel that a pair of eyes are looking at you.
VI) You no longer feel safe walking alone in the night in the dark alley.
VII) You see two pairs of red eyes looking at you in some darker part of the area but when you blink your eyes they are no longer there.
VIII) When you are bathing you do it as fast as possible and keep your eyes on the door and close all windows if any making sure no one can see you.

When you are sure you are being stalked, a person (the stalker) , should call you by then if he's good at it, and then say in the stalker raspy voice, "I want your blood". By then, make sure you prepare a vial of your own blood, and then put it outside your house. The stalker should no longer disturb you. :)

II. Topic II, erm, National Service.
National Service is a beautiful and engaging subject. The nicer term being National Service, and the less nicer term, Conscription. You see, an individual finds it very hard to argue and fight against the Government AND the Law, because if you really look at it, in Singapore, the Government IS the Military IS the Law. By the way, National Service is the correct term to use during Peace Time. All the time in NS, you will be frequently reminded of the things that you CAN do , but end up being charged. A Chargeable Offence. Disobeying orders - chargeable offence. Throwing vulgarities at your superior - chargeable offence. Superior throw vulgarity at you - not an offence. These are just some examples, of why singaporeans have no human rights. Because if they have, people will start abusing it, and then the country cannot really function. Not as a free state. Majulah Singapura means Freedom Singapore, but actually means freedom from other countries, not from the government. I think the appropriate term is FISH. In SG, you are fish trained to obey. Sounds familiar? hmm . Too many engaging thoughts at the moment.

III. Final Fantasy VII - Advent Children
Man, although it is sad the DVD got ripped 1 day after it's ORD, to leechers its a godsend. ^^ , anyhow, the movie was great and the CG is nothing short of two thumbs up. Perfectly chiselled faces. Man, if only this is real. Storyline wise is very subtle throughout, and you have to have played and understood the game to truly enjoy the movie. Once again, Square Enix have done it. Goes to show the quality of Japanese Animation, if not the quantity. hmm. The action was great, finally i can see Tifa fight, Cloud's omnislash and ... Sephiroth's murasumune. Damn I adore him. He's full of cool and undivided foolishness, plus he has the rank of One-Winged Angel ><

時々で

2005-09-01T15:37:00.000+08:00

時折、誰か私のことが信じる。

If you have gotten in here, welcome and thanks for trying it. You can be happy to say, I cracked this simple shit of Kef's! And I hope this will be your first step (if not the 'n'th step) to the underground world of hacking.

I'm still up and tight about Da Vinci Code, Amalgrams and Cryptograms.

For those who came in here by begging me or by word of someone else, the clues were all given.. Inside the clue itself at the prompt - 'the password is not easy', plain as daylight, 'nor' is a separator, 'not to be guessed' directly means "should be bypassed", and finally a redirection to google.com, which means u can find a simple bypass procedure with a simple websearch :)

*EDIT* I have removed the password thing, because it has done it's job. Heh. Shows the amount of effort people put in.

Buddhism

2005-07-16T21:56:00.000+08:00

it just puzzles me in a way. Why are the nuns and the monks separate?

People ask me what have I been doing these few days. Here's a summary. Golf, PS2, PC. Yeah, the usual underground work. Before I enter the army and the gruelling stages of that step, which is scheduled 5 days later, I forgive all who have betrayed me, hurt me (whether I know it or not), or in any form disgrace me. Finally, I wish you all the best for your entry into the adult world, and more importantly, keep your optimism and your noses high. Keep your honor with you, and your street senses with you. Uphold the decree of Aslan, and by the will of Chronos, and the sanity of Arktos, bless you all.

2005-07-08T03:28:00.000+08:00

Death by Jarid :)

Wahahaha.

2005-07-04T23:21:00.000+08:00

You're Dark!!

What DNAngel Character Are You? (Manga)
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Choices

2005-07-03T00:30:00.000+08:00

Sometimes having no choice is better than having too many choices. I shall henceforth quote an example..

Right now, i'm going into army 20 days later.. then after that, i'll eb choosing a big decision to decide a large part of my life - where and what to further my studies. I can either 1) do an optometry diploma and take over my Dad's business (safest and easiest), 2) do a medical degree overseas (difficult and harsh but rewarding), 3) do a psychology degree in NTU, 4) do a Life Sciences degree in NUS/NTU. I have to weigh my decision and it is getting tiring. Most people would encourage me to stay in Singapore, and I agree.. it is much more safe and easier. But I also wish that I could be different, and absorb the power of overseas.. I hate to make a wrong decision and I can only blame myself , not others. And when I go through all this, I remember that making faults are precedented to making good moves.. Only through mistakes can one become more powerful. But some mistakes destroy you..

One thing is for sure.. once I go in army, I'll start to understand. Everything. Having choices is almost always better than having no choices.

Aziraphale's Thinking

2005-06-27T01:12:00.000+08:00

is dumb.

[Quote]
Aziraphale said...

Kef:

I will tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
Fantasie Impromptu.

I will say something that only makes sense to you and me.
"Just do it"

I will tell you my first memory of you.
The bald, silent, slight red kid who always sat in the front row, no matter how uncool it looked. :)

I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
PANDA. A very cold, unscrupulous Panda. I dont know WHY it was a panda. But if a panda were to amble around lying to ppl and acting all know it all - I'd know it was you.

I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
Where you get all your drive to excell...do you enjoy it?

Then post this in your own
journal...

[/quote]

Is dumb.

2005-06-24T01:16:00.001+08:00

All You Hamsters Sleep Together.

2005-06-24T01:16:00.000+08:00

Light Boiled.

2005-06-24T01:14:00.000+08:00

Roller Belto.

2005-06-24T01:13:00.001+08:00

Takoyaki Stick.

2005-06-24T01:13:00.000+08:00

栄え寿司

2005-06-23T00:52:00.000+08:00

it's a cat-picture of the day! picture from http://www.perturb.org/content/kitties/ , go there to find more.

licensed

2005-06-19T00:16:00.000+08:00

sigh.. now many good anime getting licensed. which means i'll get more bored. sigh.

A Show

2005-06-17T21:27:00.000+08:00

just watched 9th episode of Basilisk: Kouga no Ninpou Chou.

This anime is about two ninja tribes, Ogen and Kouga, who for many years have been prevented from killing each other off by a peace treaty from the Shogun. In the first episode, the peace treaty was broken by the Shogun to set off a great conspiracy, and the show started off.

Both tribes have their own 'special abilities', like Yashamaru of Ogen has the ability of deadly strings that can cut rock and flesh alike. Also, each tribe has 10 of such special people. At the beginning they were both given a scroll, which contains the name list of the 10 people of each side, and were to be striked off with a blood mark when they were killed. Even in the first episode, both leaders of the tribes killed each other off. Very straightforward.

Soon word of the broken treaty spreaded, and the Ogen tribe got news of it first. Blood started to spill. And this is the most exciting part of the show, being that the characters just get killed. While most anime and most movies seem to drag the death of their characters, main characters never get killed, Basilisk brings this to a new level by *just* letting them get killed. I didnt expect Shogen, who was a first episode protangonist, to get killed in the 3rd. Yashamaru, on the 6th.

Also, this is also a love story of the Ogen's daughter - Oboro-dono, and the Kouga's son, Gennosuke. Their marriage was as much arranged as they are in love with each other, but the broken treaty spelled the demise. Both of their special ability are in their eyes. Oboro is a very innocent girl whose eyes will "stop" the special ability of other ninjas when they come into contact. Gennosuke is portrayed as a very mysterious person, and only in the 9th episode, he shows his ability, a terrifying skill that when his eye comes into contact with the opponent, he cause them to either kill themselves, or kill others.

I thought that to defeat Gennosuke, Oboro is the key. Because when she looks Gennosuke in the eye, he cant use his ability, which was very powerful against most of Ogen. But once again the plotline was unexpected. In the very end of the 9th episode, Oboro, under the pressure of her tribe (now she's leader because Ogen died), blinded herself. Her idealism was to have peace, a shared dream with Gennosuke. And she wouldnt have it any other way. I felt alot of regret when it happened, because somehow I wanted to see Gennosuke and Oboro fight it out.. but the script wouldnt let it. :)

Very interesting story to me, including very good drawing. Especially the character's eyes.. expressive and pretty. Why must she cut her eyes?

Abusing the Cam.

2005-06-14T01:55:00.000+08:00

River Nirvana? Look closer, it's too glossy to be a river :)

2005-06-14T01:51:00.000+08:00

Plant of.. Hope?

始めてる

2005-06-11T18:11:00.000+08:00

My first attempt at a wallpaper ^^ Hope you guys like it. *Kipu*Anemones will be the signature.. until i can find a better name. Please do suggest ^^

Bukit Timah: Taken by [ixus 40], E2.0, Vivid Mode, Hand-Shaken Blur

むかっ腹

2005-06-10T00:05:00.000+08:00

Delinquents with Pride.

Getting into fights is fine, but violence isn't.

[Yakuza Philosophy]

In other news;
1. Damn that hair-cutter. and damn my mother. She kept harping to the hair-cutter to cut it short and stuff. I knew it since the beginning it would be an error, she wouldn't believe my judgement. Now that bloody hair cutter took 45 mins to cut my hair to shorter and shorter. Let me rephrase this, at T=15minutes, it was actually done. But apparently he seeemed to be unsatisfied with one side. So he cut that side. Then the other side seemed longer. So he cut. And he cut. And he cut. Asshole.

Moral: Mum, my sense of judgement is better than yours in certain aspects, it is wise to know where to stop. Haircutter, you perfectionist w2b. You suck. And I hope you dont visit my blog.

2. Billiards. IT seems that the pros made it look so simple to do all those gay shots. But I tried it out and it wasnt half that easy. I'll perservere and bring glory to my egoistic self. Damn those 2 onna. All the time pooling they trying to model themself with Rich's glove. Sexy gloves. Why are female always so female? Sigh. The bigger picture, fail to see they have.

3. Gokusen! I know it's already a very old show, but I like it. It's got style. It's about a female teacher from the Yakuza determined to work as a high school teacher, teaching maths. She became the homeroom teacher for a notoriously naughty class, and that's when the fun begins. :)

4. I beat my brother at Golf! Hurray. He used to be better FOR A WHILE. But his glory days are over. After weeks of struggle, it soon proved that I'm the consistent. 6-7-8-9-10 iron is my forte. 45/50 shots go where I want them to - within 10 foot of target. He couldnt even get the ball in the air due to his "diao lang tang" behavior and always dont wanna practise.

5. I lose to my brother at 8-ball! 5-1. The only win was because i sunk the 8-ball on break. There are things I admit. I suck at the angles. Used inappropriate force power. But soon it will be overcomed.

Blessed are those with voices. [Good Night]

Godsend

2005-06-05T01:43:00.000+08:00

I have always assumed that the word Godsend means the literally. God-sent.

After checking dictionary.com, I found out that it isn't quite true.

Variation 1:
Something wanted or needed that comes or happens unexpectedly.

Variation 2:
a sudden happening that brings good fortune (as a sudden opportunity to make money); "the demand for testing has created a boom for those unregulated laboratories where boxes of specimen jars are processed like an assembly line."

And we come back to the same question. What is Life? In the recent movie and an old time favorite book, the Hitchhiker's Guide to Galaxy, the author Douglas Adams mentioned that the answer to the question is , us. Life is the Earth and the people and the animals and whatever lifeform on it. It is an answer that is so immense and overwhelming, that Douglas sums it up that easily. We are Life. It can be seen, touch and felt, it is all around us. We don't need to question that. And actually, we don't. Until people began to become bored. They start to step unto what is unrequired of them. Stuff that brings more and more questions that cannot be answered nor verified. And of course, this whole phenomenon is also part of Life.

Blogging is a Godsend. I'm using my literal form. Which means it's a blessing invention, or innovation. I like to visit other people's blog to peek into their little window of Life. And in doing so, I can understand a little of their agony and their fears, their joys and their love. Humans are just so nice to observe. If I can be a God, sitting there just looking at the little movements below, I would be contented. Assuming that I'm above and I'm not a small deity.

Meanwhile, billiards have been most interesting. I'm beginning to start to understand the physics of the game. Straight shots are not necessarily easy, in fact it is said that 35 degree shots are the easiest. Hard shots include near-90 degree angles. I can't seem to do a good break recently, but at least I found out the way to pot in the 8-ball in 8ball on the break would be to hit in between the 2nd and 3rd ball with a low-english strike.

Food & Various

2005-06-03T00:04:00.000+08:00

Volcano Ramen. It wasn't that bad. And food at Ajisen isn't as bad as I thought. On the contrary it was NOT BAD. Hitchhiker Guide 2 Galaxy is a wonderful show. Smart. 4.5/5 rating.

2005-06-03T00:01:00.000+08:00

味線の食べ物。

2005-06-03T00:00:00.000+08:00

Hamster stuffing his own head into ...

2005-06-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

Digusting, bubbly death. $1.00 will be given for those who can guess correctly what is this. Terms and Conditions apply and subject to change. Terms are quoted by author of this website, message him for the terms. It is your responsibility to know the terms beforehand.

2005-06-02T23:58:00.000+08:00

a bit screwed up. I suppose to wear dark. anyway, representation of light side vs. dark side. train was moving.

Surprise

2005-05-29T03:59:00.000+08:00

i'm pleasantly surprised that people actually randomly browse blogs when i read the comments, I guess they just want to know a little bit more about the other worlds out there :) Each person has his or her own worlds and his blog is just like a small window to catch a glimpse into that world. Thats provided if he blog properly. hehe.

I believe that pictures speak a thousand words, therefore i'll update with more pictures. A digital cam is a godsend.

recently i'm feeling calm. received sms from weilun@wales. suddenly the world feeels small. even though i'm not at russia, i can feel the cold, i can feel the dread. even though i'm not at japan, i can feel the people, i can feel the houses. this is the power of imagination, here sitting on my chair, life comes to a stand. I can here the hamsters behind me, and i can shut them out if i want to. Imagination is the key.

What many people cannot understand, including the foreign minister , is that there isn't any box. They always say "Think outside of the box", and this is exactly how u should reply, "There is no box". Feel proud about it. Imagination is the key here.

Quotes..

Only after the Last Tree has been cut down,
Only after the Last River has been poisoned,
Only after the Last Fish has been caught,
Only then will you find that
Money Cannot Be Eaten.
-Cree Indian Prophecy

And it is true. We are blinded by money. And sometimes i feel guilty of that. But we all know that the last fish,river,tree is still some way down the road because of many anti-campaigns. these are good. there is balance in the force yet..

New Set Of Pictures!

2005-05-26T06:52:00.000+08:00

my taliban and me.

2005-05-26T06:51:00.000+08:00

owned chandelier.

2005-05-26T06:50:00.001+08:00

Dew.

2005-05-26T06:50:00.000+08:00

fishhead corpse.